Don't be offended, I was just sayin' ;)
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10:36 AM & Thursday, November 8, 2012
Okay so I can't seem to sleep. I'm so awake now even though its 2am and I have to be in school at 8am tmr. Oh god why. Haha scumbag brain.
 So like my life scenes have been flashing before me. And the most memorable scene was my recent relationship with this...amazing guy. Unfortunately circumstances didn't permit us to continue so uhh we didn't manage to last. As much as I longed to have a future with him.  Okay so here's some stuff about him :) He's mature, sweet, romantic, funny and understanding. Let's just say he's everything I could ever ask for. Maybe that's what made forgetting him so difficult. Because he was just so perfect. I'd rather he cheated on me or something so I could like hate him. It was a wonderful 9 months with him and these were say the most lovely 9 months of my life so far? Haha yeah note the "so far". It felt so good to have his company, love and support for the 9 hectic months of school, lessons, homework, tests and disappointments. And I really loved how he used to say "I love you more" and "I love you forever and always". As much as it sounds really cheesy, to me it was really sweet :) I really hate how people would say "Oh you silly girl you're falling for his sweet nothings! He doesn't mean it he's just saying it to make you melt". Oh god. Seriously? Who are you to doubt his sincerity? How would you know he doesn't mean it/ Are you a psychic? But whatever. Haters gonna hate. Haha okay change of topic. Another thing I keep thinking about other than him, is my future. I'm always wondering, what am I going to do with my life? I have many cousins and they have super good qualifications and I'm like, just me. HAHA not that I doubt myself or look down on myself. Its just that its super annoying when relatives draw comparisons between me and my cousins.  Can't they leave me alone?!  Bitch please, I'm awesome the way I am.  Sorry for the spam of the memes. I must say I really like memes! Haha their faces are SO epic and are really funny. Okay so where was I? Right, my relatives. Sometimes I wonder if I work hard just to impress them. That thought scares me. I don't work for anybody except for myself urgh. Why should I work to impress them? Its their loss for not appreciating me ;) Hmmm. Oh yes, I love to imagine scenes from Hong Kong dramas too. Its so cool visualising myself as the main character and living his/her life! Don't you just love Hong Kong dramas? I feel that they have really good, exciting plots. Their actors and actresses are really good looking too :D Wonder how it feels to be any of them!  Here's one of the beautiful actress, She Shi Man :)  This is one of the charming actors, Bosco Wong :D Hahaha I'm like promoting them here? Sorry for this long post I was just sayin' what I was thinking currently. My whole mass of thoughts. Hahaha. Not very insightful thoughts but nevertheless :P Well, till I next blog again. Which I wonder when. Labels: Don't be offended because I was just sayin' |
